Thoughts on Being a Violinist
I love my job (or future job). I feel that I am very fortunate to be able to do something that I truly love to do. It’s a lot of fun, I get to work with some great kids, I get to jam out occasionally, and I am surrounded by beautiful music. Some days my homework is to go home and listen to a Beethoven Symphony, most days I’m expected to practice and analyze the most efficient way to learn a piece of music.
I however have many other interests. If you read my blog, you know that I love to knit, I like to watch movies, and I especially like cuddling with my boyfriend or my cat. Most of the time I can figure out how to balance all of these things on a tight rope and not only make music but have a somewhat normal life as well. These days it seems like there is little room for anything else but music. I get the feeling that if I want to be a decent musician I will never be able to enjoy other parts of life. So I begin to question, I love my violin, but is it worth it taking over my entire life? Is this just how it feels when a musician is in school, or is this just what is expected all the time? Can I handle it? If this is what it means to be getting a Masters, and it gets easier after this, then I can make it through. I have one more year of my degree, and I can push through that much.
Mostly I’m just feeling very overwhelmed. I had a horrible lesson yesterday, and a not so hot playing test today. I will be playing in Master Class in a few hours and all I want to do is curl into my bed with a good book and a cuppa’. Hopefully it will be better after this crazy busy week.